Bismillah. It has been quite a while since I wrote anything as you well known. Eventually, I've deleted all my entries in this blog again, it all seems too dull and over dramatic. Yes, they are. I have a few posts that I started and I then lost interest in, end up in draft, typical me. To be honest, I miss blogging. I miss updating all those stuffs, stories, feelings like what I used to do back then. I miss everything. Indeed, life is beautiful.
Anyway,
I couldn't believe that I'll be turning 16 this year, the phase where I'll be facing problems, trials, obstacles and yet I'm not sure whether I could bear with my unstable hormones ---emotions as well. Life as a teenager? The phase I'm utterly facing now. Actually, I get scared to face up this life. Fear of all the tragedies, distractions, adverse symptoms that are all happening out there. I'm clueless, this is not supposed to happen in life. People in this era i'm living lost their humanity, even animals are way smarter than them. They dont deserve to be called animal, even animals still have brains but these people dont have one. I'm kinda scared to go out into the real world, too many bad things happened lately.
But at the same time, let's look at the bright side. I feel tremendously grateful for what I have in life now, at least I'm living in a peace country even though there's a few distractions that distract us. Yeah, be happy. You have a family, a happy family that I couldn't ask for more. Well sometimes, your mum scold you, you have a big fight with your siblings, and sometimes you feel like your life is dull because there's no one understands you. Sometimes, you are happy and sometimes you are not in the mood to talk. That's normal. Could you imagine if there's no any problem exists in your life? It must be really boring aite because it seems like we're just rotating the same routines of life, we're replaying the same actions in life. Probably that sounds dull and bored.
So stand up straight, look at yourself in the mirror and be happy for what you are, for what you have. Do not let the negative thoughts and sadness intrude you. Look at the bright side, at least I have a family, friends and surrounded by good people aite? Aren't they precious? Yes they are :D Be assured in yourself that your life will go along the way perfectly according to your rhymes of wishes. Life will smoothly go like what you've planned. InshaAllah, and above all trust that Allah s.w.t is always by your side whenever you are. Put Him at the first stage in your heart.
